What I have to offer....

After coming across Social Hitchhiker's blog, I realized that I have to know what I want out of life for myself. His blog is interesting because his values and ideas about people is what I want. I want to be able to talk to anyone and connect on an emotional level to genuinely help people. With women, I want to have that control to be able to communicate well and keep the woman (or plural ;) ) I want. To find myself and bring out my natural personality and effectively attract women is my goal.

Oh yeah, I had told you guys that I was planning on taking a workshop with SIC. Apparently, rules have changed when it came time for the weekend. Though there were some money issues I had and couldn't bring the goods, SIC had changed the workshop to a one day session where it is more intense. Sounds fishy to me, so as of this moment I still have faith in them. Right now, I would want to try to sign for Juggler's seminar. Both companies emphasize on having a strong frame that fits your personality that is congruent with you. I plan on taking both and see the advantages for each to better my game.

Reasons why I think girls might want to be with me:

I am naturally energetic, positive, and have a don't care mentality when it comes to having fun. I love to dance, and sing. Though, this might be a disadvantage to me since its really not i guess alpha male like? I don't understand. Anyways, I am always thinking. Sometimes I don't say what I want, even though I think it. I love to laugh. Any girl who makes me laugh is a freaking plus on my list!! I am cute. I don't think I'm drop dead handsome, but what I've heard is that my personality is the most attractive about me. Regardless of my ethnicity (Cambodian). I love to talk, and talk and talk when its appropriate. I am a hardworker, in a working environment. Though I am freaking lazy when it comes to house chores ( I hate it). But, I'm learning to not be. Other girls say that my quiet nature side, is also appealing. I found out that I'm a Sanguine/Phlegmatic person - which means that I'm energetic, creative and at the same time I'm chill, lazy, thinks too much. Overall, the worst thing about me I think is that I procrastinate heavily. That's a no no. I have to learn how to change that habit. All of this, is to make me aware that I do have something to give to girls.

I want to start sarging on my own. I've heard that duplication can equal success. So here goes nothing on learning how to be a PUA. I know I'll will definitely benefit from this experience....Peace out and look out for my FR's and LR's.

Reasons why I should be a pick up artist.

Okay...so I've been debating whether I should really have this journey as a pick up artist. For one thing, I am concentrating on being FREE. Pretty much, meaning free to do whatever I want with time, and having money not be an issue. So I was thinking can I do this while learning how to be a pick up artist. Which is more important to me at this moment? I have talked to my best friend about because he's also in the business of being FREE. He decided on his own to reject the PUA learning community and stick with the business. I, on the other hand, feel I need to have both. Thus, I want both. Here are my reasons for learning to be a pick up artist.

1. I want to be socially confident
2. I want to be able to talk to anyone without any doubt of myself
3. I want to get good at talking to every girl I see.
4. I want to be able to lay girls left and right
5. I want the option of laying any girl I want.
6. I want to be able to teach others
7. I want to be able to hang on to the girl I want and marry.
8. I want to be a man.
9. I want other people to respect me.
10. Overall, success with women.

Now, I know its hard to focus on two things at the same time. The great thing about the BUSINESS, and PUA is that both teach self-growth. And that is the one thing that I want most of out life. Learning how to be grow as a person is ultimately the desire. I know you guys don't know about the BUSINESS, but it is what keeps me sane, focused, and motivated to be self driven. Learning to be a PUA just comes along with that. I probably won't be as driven with PUA....but I still want to have it as a part of my life, so that I can be in control of my life with women. I believe every man should learn how to be successful with women. Its the right thing to do.

five more days

Five more days and counting until the workshop with SIC - Apollo, and GoneSavage. I have faith these guys to teach, guide and motivate me to have success with women. Its an expectation that I have, and I expect results. Of course, failures will come, but success will also. I'm so excited and pumped up.

On another note, I talked to this chick from texas for awhile, and she has been the most confusing girl ever. She's so desperate. Needy in attention, and of someone's company other than just her friends and family. Its a shame to see her breakdown on the phone with me. I am not her therapist. I can only listen and care about what she says and though I can't relate to it, I can be there for her as a friend only. It sucks to be her. She's a gambler, a true addict of the widely popular game Texas Hold-Em. I love poker too, but not to the extent of actually driving to another state like Oklahoma(gambling is illegal in Texas) to play and improve on skills. Her aspirations to become a professional poker player is great, but leave all the drama behind with it.
Note to self: do not mess with girls who are needy. Unless they want to fuck :p.

Ok..this happened two weeks ago. The reason I'm posting this is because I want some feedback. I've known this girl for years, she was 14 when I met her at the age of 17. So she was way out of my league, and she had a big crush on me. A few months ago I saw her again at a club, seven years later. She freaking got fucking cute!! ass and everything, got her number. Called her the next night and after that, nothing else. I saw her again two weeks ago at the same club and she was all wanting to talk to me, I didn't say much. I just let her talk.
I didn't think much of it. I didn't care. Then one friday night she calls me, wanting to hang out, I'm like sure...so she comes with a friend of hers and watches a movie with my friends. She was totally giving me IOI's (scary movie) so she gets my arm blah blah, and I would rub my finger in circles around her hand to show I'm interested (I just wanted to Fuck her). Movie was done, but she still wanted to hang out - but she didn't want to go out and come home and wake her roommates up...she wanted to "chill". Of course this girl wants some tonight. Coincidentally, I had this jacket that I wore which had some condoms (lucky me). I take her back to my place to chill and she's on the bed, and I put some music on to listen to (its 2am) she asks me where I was gonna sleep. I told her, "On the same bed, if you don't mind". She's says no, so I lay by her and cuddle her, then it took me a few minutes to decide to kiss her. So I went for it, and we fucked.
The next morning I felt fucking used. Guilty and shit. I felt no connection with her whatsoever and felt like she's so into me. I drop her off in the morning at her place. Later that night we hang out, have dinner with my friends and she asks me "So what do you want outta of this?" I tell her, Lets be friends, and take it slow. She was hurt. I can tell, she did that "I have something in my eye (contacts)" crap. I was like fuck. So I tell her to reassure her that we can hang out and be friends and go on from there. I told her the night we fucked that "It just happened" I don't call her anymore lol. I've decided that its too dangerous for me to keep the relationship going on because I believe she's falling for me. I don't want that. It was too easy for me.

So I just gave the deposit for the SIC workshop last night. I am really excited. I know this is what I want to do and I know it will help me in the future. I have to get my life in control. It's the only thing I see, that would make me happy. I look forward to the workshops and seeing Apollo, and GoneSavage in action. Reading GoneSavage's post really inspired me. I have decided without telling any of my family and friends (except for lbcmaverice) that I will be an artist - a pick up artist. Having a degree in fine arts opened my eyes to questioning life. My biggest curiosities right now is the relationships men and women have, I will do my best to learn as much as I can to get the results I want. For years, its been a struggle. I thought I did find my soulmate, realizing that she wasn't the one, I knew I had to do something about myself to change. And it is starting with the community. I do believe this is a men's movement. I don't think there has been one. It's the movement that will have men who don't know jack shit about girls, a fighting chance with these women. As an artist, being critiqued is nothing knew to me, I know I will learn from them and I must keep going, and going. Success is the result. It has to be.

Testing

Ok..this is the first post of hopefully, an incredible journey through self discovery. Good luck to me.