I'm Back!

Hey guys not sure how many of you guys are reading this....but I'll write anyways.

Lets start with what's been happening to me in the past few months.....Well...I've been off and on with PUA stuff...meaning just being a KJ..really sad. Its okay. I've been unemployed since mid March. The whole thing with the mortgage industry is bad. I was the lucky few along with thousands of employees that got laid off from their company. Yes I've been living off of severance pay and unemployment benefits! 2006 was quite a year and 07 isn't starting off that great either. On the bright side since February I was invited to this bday party that this girl I use to party with. I met her in 06 of March or April I believe along with her sister! They're are both asian cuties. Lets call the bday girl BdayAsianHB and BDAHB's sister. The first time meeting them at a bar through a mutual friend I only remembered the sister's conversation....because I made her laugh and vice versa. Though I got BdayAsianHB's number instead because she was cuter, though I really connected with the sister who which I might is definitely cute as well. After a few months of hanging out with BdayAsianHB and having it go nowhere....I stopped hanging out with her and her friends and that was it....
So back to the bday invite...BdayAsianHB invited by texting me...I seriously didn't know who it was...cause I deleted her number. Anyways....I agreed and I was looking forward to go. And that's where it ALL started...
I saw the sister and I was just DAMN...she's fucking cute! I got her number and started talking to her after that...since February and April I hung out with her three times! She was a tough cookie. So today....she is my GF...can't believe I'm saying that..but yeah she's my gf. At first I thought man It would be nice to have her.......I was chasing her and finally got her! but here's the thing....she's the type of girl who likes to be in control. She is HORRIBLE with time. She is really INSECURE about herself, and about how I feel about her. I want to remedy this. But...having known about the community I know that I fucked! Because for one I know I can drop her and find something else....but I've never had to before. I've never manned up about dumping a girl. I don't want to. I want to see if I can do something about it. We've been going out for almost three months now. She's in love with me. I told her I was in love with her also...at the time I felt it. Now I feel like I'm lying to her when I say it. It sucks. I moved too fast and its scaring me because I was in a long term relationship for five years before..engaged...yea sucks. And I don't want that to happen again. I want to make sure that I'm making the right decision. I have to be Honest with her. So far that's the whole thing. She's my 2nd gf only. I want more experience with women before I actually my a serious committment.